I sit here at 8.30am, my daughter dropped off at nursery for a half day session. I have a nice cup of tea in my hand (one of those really good ones), the traffic roars in the distance, the birds let out the odd tweet, and the day is starting to warm up.
So what’s next?
I’m now officially self-employed, and these are my first hours of having that freedom again. I have a million admin things to do, a year’s backlog of house tidying, and a shiny new LinkedIn profile.
But I also have those doubts of the freelancer. Will I find some work to do? Will anyone ever pay me again? Will I enjoy the work? What if I end up doing something I don’t enjoy?
And the thoughts in the back of my mind about my daughter being at nursery. She’s not quite settled there yet, although apparently she’s doing well. She’d never been looked after by anyone other than my husband or I until a few weeks ago. It does feel a bit weird to sit here alone in the quiet amongst her toys. It’s as much of a transition period for me as for her I think.
Then alongside all of that is the optimism of a sunny day and a blank page in WordPress. A page on which I can choose to communicate whatever I wish. That’s what I love about writing. That’s why I want to do more of it. I need to make time for it.
Anyway, I have lists to write and an accountant to meet later, so that’s it for now. I’m not going to write a daily diary of my freelance life (everyone breathes a sigh of relief), but I thought it fitting to mark the first day.
I have no idea how regularly I’ll be writing, but I do have a lot of ideas and quite a few draft blog posts, so you might see an initial flurry of activity!
Have you returned from maternity leave as a freelancer? How did you find it? Any tips?