Are dreams with limits still dreams?

As I continue with my journey through motherhood, I come to new stages. First there was the scary intensity of the early days, then it calmed down but wasn’t always that exciting until my daughter started moving…… Then after a year away from work I started back, freelancing, and she started at nursery. And now,…

Disjointedness and time

It all feels disjointed and there’s too much going on. My paid work sometimes bears no resemblance to the things I like doing. I run out of time for me every week. I never get round to certain important tasks. Until they become urgent. Or until they don’t so they just lurk in my brain.…

Why am I writing anyway?

I’ve been writing regularly again for a while now, diverse topics, whatever has sprung into my brain at the time. But at the moment I’m not sure why I’m doing it. I suspect I know why it’s not working for me. Maybe it’s because I have a cold and am grumpy. Maybe it’s because writing…

Have you ever watched a toddler?

I never really spent time watching children until I had one. But now I have a 22 month old daughter, it’s something I spend a lot of time doing. I read a description some time ago that I love – saying that small children are like little scientists. They’re investigating the physical and social worlds…

Pointing things out

I realised that I spend quite a lot of my time these days pointing things out to a small person. Sitting in the living room, I’m made aware of just how many planes come in to land at Heathrow each day, as I point many of them out to her. Wandering around the local area…

How can I simplify life?

I am increasingly feeling that life is too complicated and full of superfluous information and activity. We create work for ourselves, and we put pressure on ourselves to keep up with what’s going on outside our own lives. Our minds are often elsewhere, planning the next thing, worrying about problems that sometimes aren’t even within…

I love and hate social media

Since I joined Facebook in 2006/2007 (can’t remember which), thinking it was a nice way to share photos with my Rotaract friends, social media has become a big part of many people’s everyday life. I joined LinkedIn when I was made redundant in 2009, and I joined Twitter in 2010 to share my blog posts…

Me and my writing

I’ve been a bit stop-start on my blog over the last few years, blogging less when I have had less spare time. But whatever else I do with my daily life, I am a writer as well. I rediscovered that back in 2012, writing every day as part of a 30 Day Challenge. And ever…

Thoughts on friendship

So what has inspired or interested me this last week? What things have I wondered about? Friendship has cropped up a few times this week. Seeing an old friend I’d not seen in a while, hearing news of other friends and acquaintances through social media and mutual acquaintances. Sorting through some old letters and coming…

This started as a blank page

All blog posts start with a blank page. And somehow get filled with thoughts. The blank page is a bit daunting if you don’t feel as if you’re in a creative mood. But I find just starting to type something, anything, often loosens up the brain cells. I’m trying to get back into blogging regularly,…

How can I make time for creativity?

I’ve got some writing projects I’d like to do. And some photography, as always. But I’m spending all my child-free days working or doing personal admin and chores. And getting creatively frustrated. I’d like to be doing more, but I don’t have the time. Is that not having the time or not making the time?…

The paradoxes of nursery care

It’s a weird thing. My daughter was ill last week, so I wasn’t able to take her to nursery. Or anywhere else where she’d pass on germs to other children. So I spent three days with her, pottering around the house, popping out for walks round the local area. And at times being driven insane…

I’m really bad at doing nothing

Here I am, almost at the end of 5 free hours to do whatever I want. No work to do quite yet, daughter at nursery. So why have I been busy and not relaxed? I don’t know, but I do know that this isn’t new for me. For some reason I feel like I have…